Mothering Two

I am learning how to balance the sometimes competing needs of my children.



Mostly I do okay.

But there are days I feel guilty for not being able to give Buchela the same amount of attention I gave him before Dinbit was born.

He has been great.

He loves his sister. I am pleased that there has not been big meltdowns relating to jealousy and feeling left out.

Still, there have been days when I felt his needs have been put on the back burner.

Like the day when I, unconsciously, began singing his favorite song to her.

I looked up to find him watching us intently.

I stopped singing.

A brief look passed between us.

Mine, one of guilt.

His, one of confusion and creeping comprehension.

My son is learning he is not the center of my world anymore.

I am learning somethings aren't to be shared.

I am looking for a new song.